Fading Dreams

I try to outrun the inevitable and shut my eyes to my waking reality.

So I drug myself numb to the marrow, so unconscious, I could lay for a while, unreceptive to my truth.

But no matter how far I run, I can’t seem to hide from these shadows. 

No matter where I go, I can’t seem to shake this dust off my shoes.

Slowly reality slips into my dreams, turning them bleak.


Looking back at my younger days,

I remember being told I was the future… that destiny was my friend.

My teacher always said, “just work hard and all your dreams will be achieved”.

Now I wonder if it was all a lie, or if maybe I did not work hard enough and the fault was mine.

But just know that I did try,

I gave it my all and stared long enough into the eye of life’s raging storm.

But then I got a taste of the worlds insanity, and blinked.


This isn’t the future promised me, this was never the dream I dreamt.

To find myself wallowing in the gallows of addiction and drug dependency, walking down the path of my untimely demise.

I see the end, but I am with neither the will nor the courage to avert it.

I am in dire need of help, but my feeble hands are so frail to reach out. 




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